Life keeps slipping away...

In the current
Face, I count a world all full of sins
The voice is strong
But never was and never to begin

I was going to kill you
I couldn't find a dagger
And my mind goes inside itself
To find a place to bury you

I feel the cold hands of you
Stars will tremble in the beautiful sea of us

In the garden I meet you
In soft wet darkness I crawl inside you
My favourite memory
Blood and salty tears
Your flavour still within
I still crave your perfect skin

Wrapped in your arms
Swimming inside your blue eyes
It tastes like acid rain

Transcend with me, my twin
Burn with me
Until the universe gives in
We flow like torrent winds
Spiral love
Eternity begins

Wrapped in your arms
Swimming inside your blue eyes
It tastes like acid rain

You'll fall in love again
The pieces of the puzzle
Will bind you back together

You were my angel

There's no return
Fate is sealed
And you're touched
I forgive you

You were my angel

You and I know you dance like an angel

The key won't slide in the cavernous zero
Of precious lotions
And bracelets of silver and gold
They're told
Of pipes that whistle
Of little-known summer-shine

Voices in riddles
Plagues of mankind
And my woman endows slightly in key

Expanded glands
And noise in your throat
A gargling sound echoes the ground
A wet mess on the floor
The sky cannot look down
I listen to geckos
Because they grip every sound

A voice in the mirror makes a cracking boy
I'm busy you know
Ears turn around
Ears turn around

Every morning when I wake up I am burned by the sun.

Gentle breeze, cover me
Soft stone, sink in the river

Back into your arms

Sun, bear down over me
Blanket warm
Skin to touch

Back into your arms

I keep looking for you
Finding myself
The twisted self

You are the bubble that surrounds me
The room I'm in
You can keep my heart
K is for kissable

You add life to me

Could you read me
Something to make me sleep
So kissable you
Your touch could add life to me

So kissable
You add life to me

I've been here
You've been somewhere else
I've been sleeping
And swallowed poison

I have no more things
No more more hands
And no more springs
I bit my life out
And swallowed poison

I'm awake
I'm awake for you

I've been dreaming of social reasons
Dreaming slowly
I am asleep
Waiting for the time to release
I've been dreaming of you

I'm awake
I'm awake for you

You can paint the bedroom of our house on the beach
We can be happy
You never left me
Maybe you don't know that when I close my eyes
You can be with me for the rest of our lives

Somewhere inside you
Is the woman I love
I want you to hear me

You're beautiful

We can fly away
As long as we're together we can be happy

You never left me
Maybe you don't know that when I close my eyes
You can be with me for the rest of our lives

Somewhere inside you
Is the woman I love
I want you to hear me

You're beautiful
And I love you

(Original by Deftones)

This town don't feel mine
I'm fast to get away - far

I dressed you in her clothes
Now drive me far - away, away, away

It feels good to know your mine
Now drive me far - away, away, away
Far away
I don't care where just far - away
And I don't care

Far away
And I don't care where just far away

Behold my hand
Feel as one

Retire and fall into my arms
So we fall asleep

You control my heart
Away
My heart is yours

Control
It's in your grass you give me
I keep a hold on you
I keep a hold

You control my heart
Behold
You control me
I lose control

He digs a deeper hole
To bury his sins and ways
He looks at his life
And he cuts with a knife
To feel a different kind of simple, easy strength

He can feel his skin burn
And I see that I am

Blistered and bleeding
I'm blistered and bleeding

I can feel you when you think of me
And his eyes may be shut
And his heart can get cut
But his view will stay the same
The scenery around stays the same

He can feel his skin burn
And I see that I am

Blistered and bleeding
I'm blistered and bleeding

Who are you?
The man in my dream

I can feel you the deeper I get

You were buried in black
Dressed on pure white

You were buried in white
When will she come?
When will she breath?

And there was no time to cry

When will she come?
When will she breath?
If we could grow amongst the weeds
Angels do fall
Fall to their knees

There was no time to cry

Four straight hours
You're killing me
Four straight hours

Eighty stitches in the head
Three slipped discs
Life, kill the end
Four straight hours
Your killing me

(Charlie being tickled)

Death sun
Waiting around for you
A desert mirage
Waiting around for you
I'll keep you waiting

You're too late
Even in winter
A black rose, death sun
Soul destroyed
Sun stroke
So keep away, foregone

Death sun
Shadowing all that is you
Stripy love
Skulls and crossbones for you

Into the bedroom
Into the death sun

You have me in your hands
I'm a cigarette
You pull away
And pluck on heart-strings
From no-where

You might find
That nothing's the way it's supposed to be
Play my life
Like I needed it
And you hear

It's not for me

Disbelief

Could it be?
The chance is to fall for a million years
I wash my face
Of everything that isn't part of you
I sit inside just thinking about it
Thinking about you

It's not for me

Disbelief

I bring you down
Only to come with

I see yellow
I see green
I see the ocean
And everything in between
Like honey that comes from a bee
I see yellow
And I feel like the magnetic core that's under my feet

All others will see, are angels and devils floating around me

I see the ocean
And everything in between
I see yellow
Like honey that comes from a bee

All others will see, are angels and devils floating around me

I come from a land of confusion and constant illusion

I see everything, with my eye

You and I can take on the world
When you're down
I'm there with you
I feel your pain - every day

When you get tired
The sparkle in your eyes, it still won't fade
I'll be your shadow
Will you be mine?

You are. My favourite thing.

I know it will hurt when we hit the ground
And come back to earth
But we won't mind
Because we're always in our world

You are my favourite thing

You always were and always will be
And you are right now, my favourite thing

You are my favourite thing
(I won't let go of)
You are my favourite thing

I light up what you left for me
As thoughts of beautiful you
Swim through my soul, heart, mind, and body

Hold me
Reach out (Rei Child)

I hope this letter finds you well
And all your dreams are realised
The puzzle becomes an image
A picture of you, my angel
For some reason a winter plant outside still blossoms through the spring
The shiny-beautiful asks me to open and let her inside
And when you open that door
Behind is everything, forever

Hold me
Reach out (Rei Child)

Violet is autumn
Roses for winter
Jasmine for spring
Frangipani for summer

In the morning I wake up to the burning
I miss you every time we pray
Both our spirits run away

Missie, won't you come and find me?

It's not just your smile
And it's not just your sad face
It's everything that no-one else can see but me
Missie, you mean everything to me

Two eggs on sunday
And a glass of only-you-know-what
Our home that looks to the beach
Together as one
We hold the world in our hands
And live a life that's beautiful

It's not just your eyes
And it's not just your voice on the line
It's everything that no-one else can see but me
Missie, you mean everything to me

I want to go back to sleep, until the day we meet
Missie, please let me be with you yesterday

This is for you baby
I'll be with you yesterday

Though these walls can close on me
And crush these bones to dust
Then the wind blows in my room
And picks the old-me up

If a part of me should stay
The bugs and ants can keep my grave

And I'll never tell you

You were made to suffer
You will never be clean
The pieces that break, in a crack they fall between

And I'll never tell you

She had not yet decided
Whether to use her power for good, or for evil

Atop the mountain hill
I soak the acid horizon
I grew from the seed of love
I reach, yet I am grounded

I am the ghost-tree

From outside, in
Colour fades my leather skin
Sun-bleached dry

I am the ghost tree

Everything that we are, is meant to be
If the world decides to leave, it will leave
You and me to rule it all in grace
I feel her in me

I am only half
When with her I am complete
Alone and only half
She's the rest of me

I turn around and you are there
If you lose your mind
I'll be there
Nothing kills ancient thirst
You are my existence

Alone and only half
She's the rest of me
I am only half
When with her I am complete

I miss you

(words by "Missie")

I feel I have no face, no shadow
No substance
I am meaningless, nothing
A faceless entity

Even my shadow ignores
I feel I have neither heart, nor soul
I would have poured it out to you
If you had asked

A solitary tear has no cheek on which to fall

I feel the space I take up is devoid of my existence

A solitary tear has no cheek on which to fall

There's no room for you
There's no room for me
Come and see

Be light darling
Be with me
In a cave in the sea, we can bleed

I know who you are

(Original by Incubus)

To see you when I wake up
is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
is a three-fold, utopian dream.

You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said,
I miss you.

I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days, but already I'm wasting away.

I know I'll see you again
whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care
and I miss you.

I have some pictures of you
And I'm in a trance
I couldn't think of anything but you today
But you're beautiful eyes

Beautiful lies
You have beautiful eyes

I see the princess of darkness
Only she knows why
I couldn't think of anything but you today
Because you're beautiful so beautiful

Beautiful lies
You have beautiful eyes

Missie, you can take me away

I watch you burn and set yourself on fire
I wish that I knew better
But it won't be so bad

Lay down
I won't be so bad to you
Lay down
It won't be so bad

I feel the need
A new need to be with her
I wish that I knew better

But it won't be so bad

Lay down
I won't be so bad to you
Lay down
It won't be so bad

Life with you could be a beautiful thing
I'd share with you my every dream
When you smile, the world is a beautiful place
Just open your eyes and let heaven's gate wait for me

When she smiles with those beautiful eyes
I'm taken away

And I walk to the light
And see you there
Just open your eyes
And we'll begin a new beautiful life

If it's the last thing I see
You smiling at me
If it makes you feel summertime is here

When she smiles with those beautiful eyes
I'm melted away

And I walk to the light
I see you there
Just open your eyes
And we'll begin a new beautiful life

Are you lonely?

As this adventure comes to a close
I have nothing to hide and nothing to show
Nothing could ever grow
Without my soul inside me

Lone wolf, it cries

(Original by Wolfsheim)

It's getting dark too soon
A threatening silence surrounding me
A wind comes up from the islands

When distance fades to stormy grey,
Washed out from the deep of the ocean,
Here I will stand to face your wrath,
While all the others are praying

Calm down, my heart - don't beat so fast
Don't be afraid, just once in a lifetime
Calm down, my heart - don't beat so fast
Don't be afraid, just once in a lifetime

No rain can wash away my tears
No wind can soothe my pain
You made me doubt, you made me fear
But now I'm not the same

You took my wife, my unborn son
Torn into the deep of the ocean
I don't pretend that I love you
Cause there is nothing left to lose

And when silence comes back to me
I find myself feeling lonely
Standing here on the shores of destiny
I find myself feeling lonely

I had a life to give, many dreams to live
Don't you know that you're losing so much this time?
Beyond the waves, I will be free
While all the others are praying

Calm down my heart

The love in you, it does not burn
There is no lesson you can learn
And there are sounds you cannot hear
And there are feelings you can't feel

Calm down, my heart - don't beat so fast
Don't be afraid, just once in a lifetime
I don't pretend that I love you
And this time I'm not scared of you

Despite your travels, are you falling deep again?
Searching under rocks when all you want is steal
Nobody knows what's real

I'll never know until I wake up next to you
I tell you I don't know what's real
Until I wake up with you
Nobody knows what's real

The butcher fights the maggie
And the maggie fights the crow
Around and round in circles they go
As I sit and watch from behind the wall of smoke

I'll never know until I wake up next to you
I tell you I don't know what's real
Until I wake up with you
Nobody knows what's real

Are you falling deep again?
She's fallen deeper
Are you falling deep again?
I know what's real

I can make you a pancake
I hope you like sugar
And I try to live without you
But it's not easy

It's not easy

I will make you a pancake one day
I make them with sugar
To eat them all by myself, it's not easy

It's not easy

Heart please turn around...

Screws turn
I cannot breath again
She walks in reverse
Curse of the heart
Take me with you

I am petrified
I'd follow you anywhere

Tight, loose
Please don't go
Walk with me the path of hearts
Teach me nothing
Heart-cage locks away
Please turn around
I am here for you

I am petrified
I'd follow you always

Please don't run
Infatuation

Please turn around

In cold
In black nothing
The world is god's broken-winged angel
A shattered vase, un-mendable
I search my soul for hope

Pieces of you
All that I have is pieces of you

The mirror reflects cold, black pity
In cold
Burning blackness
Mindless and numb
Choosing to be warm,white
I hold on to my pieces of you

Pieces of you
I will hold on to my pieces of you

The shadow climbs up the walls
Defeated by the light
And though the tunnel never ends
I'll walk that road again

And I remember everything
I remember, again

I remember everything
Why did you leave me behind, my friends?

In record time, we will be here
Falling out
Out in the sun
Over the wretches
And into the sea
Falling out, I'm falling

And i was sent to face you all
In time, we'll be friends

Pleasure me
I fall over my head

I was sent to face you all
In time we'll be friends

Save me...

I used to smoke outside
Now I ash on the floor
I've become the dirt
Where I love you no more

I know what you do
You save me from myself
But I don't see the light
And you won't come for me

You could have changed it all
But you don't see
You could have changed it all
For me

Now there's no blame in what I do
It so happens
It all comes down to you
You are all I ever want
And so it ends
Goodbye

Sometimes you're suicidal
Sometimes you fall asleep
All I feel is, nothing matters
And I give myself away
Sometimes I bleed to die
To rest upon your eyes
It's a pain that never changes
And you could have changed it all

You could have changed it all

I am a man who wants to love you
And what does god deserve?
A broken heart from all of us, but you
And she paints me a broken vase
You, the maze
I cannot escape
And my head is living in this broken cage
You, the maze

I don't pretend to know
What you're all about
I wish I had a soul to pilot my way through
I wish I had a soul pilot too

Should you feed a snake that bites you?
And what does god deserve?
A broken heart from all of us, but you
You, the maze

I don't pretend to know
What you're all about
I wish I had a soul to pilot my way through
I wish I knew the truth about you
I wish I had a soul to pilot my way through

And I sit on the fence in all of your photos
Just like all of the other guys
Just take in all of your lies
And I sit on the fence in all of your photos
Just like all of the other guys

My soul, I pledge to you
This body and heart, you belong to

Souls run away (together)
Will you be mine forever?
The system is down today
Souls run away to play

These eyes focus on you
How can the world ignore
a love that is pure, a love here to stay?

Souls run away (together)
Will you be mine forever?
The system is down today
Souls run away to play

Pain. I found out the hard way.
Pain. Please let my mind be.

Decide
Beating the numbers from meditation
No-one knows but me
Beating the numbers
Golden meditation
No-one knows but me

I walk along the streets
The towns with all the people I could meet
I wonder why I'm not like them

I'm not as old as I do feel
But if I pass away
You know that I'll come back
Your neck will tremble from my ghostly hands

And I walked along your street
To find the one I wanted all along

I could be the one

Nothing looks as good to me, as you
I hope that happiness will find you soon

And I walked along your street
To find the one I wanted all along

I could be the one

I could have been the one

(to listen to the 1996 acoustic version please contact me)

Rain trickles down your neck
Holding a wet, precious rose
Eyes are closed
Mouth is open as blood trickles down your belly

You'll rape me again
Rape me forever and ever
You chased me in the forest of love
Rape me and burn

Breaking butterflies
For love and love alone
Desire is easy

Blackness overcomes the night
I need the deepness in your eyes
Hunting as one, we search the night
I will love you until I die

Breaking butterflies
For love and love alone
Desire is easy

Rape me and burn

This is how I feel...

I know I didn't tell you what you want to hear
It's hard to say a word that no-one could describe

But I want you to know that
It feels good to be alive
And it was all because of you

You can tell me 'I miss you' and I feel the same
Would the heavens change?
Would the stars become one, as me and you?

It feels good to be alive
And it was all because of you

It's the air I breath in
You can't see it but you know it's there
I don't have the reasons
All I want to do is show you how I feel

You know how I feel

Even with this distance
You can be sure, I'm not far away
I feel energy from you
That comes to me night and day
From every tree to every star
A wish we make will come alive
I sleep and I dream of you

And I won't forget
What she says says the day she left

She said,
I belong to you
If you still want to be with me
I belong to you
Everybody knows it's true

And I wake from that life
A life where we could be something everybody envies

I awake from this sleep
Everybody knows
I awake next to you

And I won't forget
What she says says the day she left

She said,
I belong to you
If you still want to be with me
I belong to you
Everybody knows it's true

We're all gonna die

The sun will never shine for me
I wanna be at the end of a knife
People watch tv and that's their life

But hey, we're all going to die

I can see the light
If people want to fuck me then that's their right

But you're all going to die
We're all going to die

Fall back to the form that you were and let me sleep
The tired new dream batters thee eternally
Don't tell me you see
You're striving for all that you crave
So blind and you cannot feel your instincts betrayed

Surface the joy
Bring out the love that's screaming inside of me

Your life will be taken away from you

(spoken)
Insanity is social illusion
Constructed by those in collusion with power and greed
The same who jump to die from the tops of the towers they build

I want you to feel me
I want you to hurt me
I want you to fear me
I want you to hurt me

What did you do?

I wake up and go
We do all of the things we do
The things that surround me
Are things to distract me
And sometimes I forget that all I want is you

Will the skies turn grey to blue?

I'll go home with you
And do what we want to do
I've been around
And sometimes I forget that all I want is you

Will the sky turn grey to blue?

Will I find you?

A piece of you and a piece of me
Construct separate from our entity
Look forward while looking back

There's got to be a wonderland
I will go down that road
and keep looking for that heart of gold

If only I could set you free
Clarity shouldn't hold you down
My soul can dance on his own

I will destroy the sunset
If that is good for you?
I ask for sweet and sour
To taste the pain of you

These words you choke upon

In the basement
I will keep a portrait of the love we used to keep
I steal a statue of a man to give to you
Wrapped in a plastic tomb

I crossed the line
I crossed my heart and hoped to die
Would you like to see inside?
To see a heart is broken?
It's such a shame to walk this path alone
So sweet to taste the pain of you

Choke

These words you choke upon

Though your heart is young
Someone holds the key
The end is over, run
Someone holds the key
Pray for your own heart
Peace be your god
Someone holds the key
Someone...

Leave me in the cold
Hold me

You make me feel something
A hole I dig to shelter me
From all the wind and fallen trees
I cut my limbs and feed on me, to feed me

And you, are the cause of my pain

Fallen victim to emotions
Please stop the train that's running over me

You are the cause of my pain

Invert the common measurement
To find the rock inside
My red and flooding eyes

I control me
And I fall

(Original by Vast)

touched, you say that i am too
so much, of what you say is true
i'll never find some quite like you again
i'll never find some quite like you, like you

the razors and the dying roses
plead i don't leave you alone
the demi-gods and hungry ghosts
oh god, god knows i'm not at home

i'll never find someone quite like you again
i'll never find someone quite like you again

i, i looked into your eyes and saw
a world that does not exist
i looked into your eyes and saw
a world i wish i was in

i'll never find some quite as touched as you
i'll never love some quite the way
that I loved you

Moonshine
Pull me in with your gravity

Gravity
Moon pulls me towards my inevitability
And I feel so small
I feel so insignificant

Moonshine

Gravity
Pull me towards you
I notice everything isn't what it means

Moon, shine down on me
It burns my skin to the core
So cold, moonshine

Moonshine
Shine it down on me

Five years of love
Five years of trouble
After nine, I'll love you double

We'll both grow
As one from two
Chisel parts from off of you
And keep your love in my hand

If we don't seem to rest
I won't be leaving you
If we both feel our chests
The second hand leads with you

The sun don't shine without you
I don't mind that I love you
The sun don't shine without you
The sun won't shine but I won't mind

In my hand

Pulling out from my best weakness
When she comes to feast upon me
I'll be so frozen
Deep within my hollow casket box

Something tells me
I've not lost you

Something tells me
I've not lost you
Light will still keep burning in the shadows
I cut through
I've not lost you
But now you're trembling

I'm becoming

All my senses cleaned
we fall back to the sky
our death is sweet

come into me
make me taste me

you turn me inside out
all my senses cleaned
you taste like a queen

her violent scream
hold you one more night
you're my disease

come into me
make me taste me

you turn me inside out
all my senses cleaned
you taste like a queen